Okay so I went to a wedding on Sunday and for some reason, I felt like the fattest cow. All those feelings of insecurities came rushing back to me. I feel like I ended up right where I started before this whole journey. I even wore Spanx and I still felt huge. I couldn't stand it by the end of the night when the dance floor started I pulled my husband away and we took a cab home.
I had psyched myself up for this for the past 2 months. I felt really good at first, but as the night wore on, I felt like everyone was judging me. I thought I was over this, but I guess old habits die hard. I kept trying to tell myself that I was overreacting, but I just couldn't shake it.
Anyways, I know this isn't an encouraging post, but I guess it had to happen sooner or later. Today my the pants I bought for going back to work (size 14) were way too loose on me, so that brought myself back up a few notches. I am still about 30 lbs bigger than I was 2 years ago, and that still resonates with me. I need your help ladies. Some words of encouragement would be great right about now..